In-between: The dash
On that train of life That leads to nought but belief The constant is me and my bag of dreams Rise, rise sun Sink, sink moon Up and down Bright yet dark A constellation of time One stands still Against the bold and the meek Away from the tides of bitterness and honeydew Parched I remain The extra ordinary, often out of reach!
Pain!
Pain!
Pain nothing can assuage,
here therein,
within.
Beneath our skin.
We peel,
tear
cut,
inhale,
to exhale.
This is why we do what we do.
Dull the senses.
Imbibe,
rile,
indulge,
hurt the hurt.
Anything!
Something!
Within.
Now.
What annihilates:
it,
this,
us,
now!
there’s no being there
when you’re on the phone
no being there
when you’re texting or emailing
no being there
in words
when you
leave a place, any place
when you
by my side, stand or sit
hold my hands
hug me close
in the arena
take space
behold me
still
stand
stay
still
everything fades
mountains shrink
pain is divided
joy is multiplied
no more a thought, a wish, an idea
it’s you
it’s me
linked, tied
together!
Sundays are becoming my most loved day of the week
I welcome it with enthusiasm lately
It tastes like sweet beginnings
When anything can happen and I wait in anticipation
It doesn’t lead me anywhere
Nor do I impregnate it with ideals or goals
And on this Sunday
I spent time as usual on the beach
Dancing to silly tunes, running away from foamy waves
That wants to chase me up the shoreline
It feels like worship
My mind is blanketed by the sea
As I dance to the tunes like a silly girl gone wild
Bystanders sometimes will wave at this crazy woman dancing
They don’t know what I know
The dancing isn’t from joy or longing
It’s about sensation, forgetting and being all at once
I must say I get to live the choices I made
And that’s something, that sure is something
As the sand stings my naked flesh
I think about valuation
What I value
Who I value
It always comes back to you
My greatest love
What I learned
What I know
What I gave up for you
The chances I took
The risks!
Oh the risks!
How l loved you!
Loving you is the best lesson I ever lived
I wish you could have basked in my love longer
Understood its depth
I am awed
How can love like this exists
How I was blessed to have known it
How I loved you so much!
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Intrinsic value: value for one’s sake, for who you are
Extrinsic value: what do you bring to the table that I value
Yet, I loved you at your worst. Imagine that!
I never ask anyone for much
Neither do I expect them to come through
It’s always been like that
Me, doing me
Me doing
Always doing
But once in a while
Oddly enough from strangers nonetheless
Something out of the ordinary
They see me
They see me, hear me to the point
They make room for me
And they surprise me
And because ai don’t ask for much or never do
It is the greatest gift, the sweetest blessing
So if one day you hear me ask
If one day I am in need of you
Don’t try to fix it, me
Don’t assume, presume or solve
Just be here
Be here
Be here with me
#ScarsAreRemindersOfWhatWasCreated!
